“Eye went to sleep and in my dream eye was in an apartment or home familiar and unfamiliar to me.” As eye passed the corridor eye saw someone talking to a relative of mine with shades on and eye almost didn’t realize what eye saw. It was Diddy. Eye could not believe it. Eye had a panic attack on the inside and constrained myself on the outside.
The fact that eye was looking @IamDiddy was eye thought a dream come true and an honest opportunity for me to be critiqued by someone who knows what that means in music and accomplishments. Eye found a cd but it was not a professionally cooked cd, package and all. Eye slipped money in it to say please just listen to me if nothing else happens out of it. He dropped the package and picked it back up, but in a caring and self protective way, because face it folks, people will do anything to get paid these days.
We go to where eye create my music which again is in a familiar yet unfamiliar place to me but this time it looks altered. Eye can tell there had been movement or rearrangement going on. What’s most frustrating is that people were trying to get their own deal(in my head) by humming to them. Mabey they were trying to make me sing for him. Eye don’t know. Anyway, the equipment volume was altered and wires were lose and eye became upset as eye care for my belongings because eye can’t buy replacements. Eye gave a small kuntry style speech about why u don’t let people drive your car!
Well needless to say, eye didn’t get the music heard eye wanted to hear to try and impress him with a new style in music for hip hop and by the looks of his staff(a yella bone female and 2 other people) eye wasted their time, in this effort as it was getting late. Eye spent too much time trying to get it together opposed to spending that short 10 minutes playing 4 or 5 slyces for them to hear.
Eye woke up from this dream saddened as eye again realize as in my supsernatural is the example of my natural and that is my packaging, my approach, my tenure, my word choice, my technical abilities are all flawed. How in the world am eye to obtain proper attention when eye have not mastered that which eye surround myself with? Eye am to blame only and take full responsibility. All was not a total lost as the fact that even in my dreams @Iamdiddy spirit met with me and showed up to me told me something. Somewhere, someone, somehow, had enough belief in me that “Diddy” took a look to see what it was all about! Dhat my friends says plenty! “Even at my worst with God on my side eye still shine!”
Eye am sharing my spirit world and my fleshly world with ewe for this reason and that is to show how they interact and are intertwined. The fact that my equipment was broken and my response to it displayed the natural me. Had eye realized concsiously eye was in my dream eye would have carried an alternate demeanor. Eye would have remained focus and disregarded the technical difficulties and found the piece or slyce of music eye was searching for and played it for him anyway through headphones or something. When life brings to us the opportunities we say we hope for we are to spend all of our time preparing and being ready full circle at 110% so that when the other 90%(business percentage) shows up we are complete and ready to go! Eye almost decided to be depressed for the rest of my day knowing eye owe bill, after bill, after bill today! Instead eye will catch a movie and regroup with a relaxed mind knowing that The Most High God eye server is never done working with me and definitely never done working for me! God is…